Sorry it's been a while since i've blogged. Lots going on.

First off, Claire is getting big. At 34 weeks she weighed 6 pds, she should have weighed 4!! it's because of the diabetes! So the doctor said if she continues on this route i will be induced the 39th week, the week before Sept 1, and also Chris' birthday week.  Didn't want her to come early, but oh well.

Secondly, the doctors decided to put me on Glybiride for the diabetes.  My hormone levels were increasing and it was getting harder to control my sugars. At least it wasn't insulin! So i was on that for about a week or so, and i developed a rash on my neck, which is one of the side effects. So i called the doctor, she said to get off of it. So i did. But my rash didn't go away. in fact it got worse with these hideous bumps. so when i went to the doctor for my next checkup she said it was "nasty funkified" and i needed to get into the dermatologist right away. his diagnosis: Shingles!!

Basically when i had the chicken pox as a kid the virus still lays dormant in your body. Whenenver your immune system gets low (old age, cancer, pregnancy) then it can resurface as shingles. Also, stress induces it. So with all of that combination, i got it on my neck. It's not a bad case. It's all in one spot, but it itches like crazy and it's ugly! So i can treat it with medicine for a week.

But, there can be a risk now that i have it while i'm pregnant. If i go into labor while i am still contagious (i.e. this week) then there is a strong chance Claire will have it, and she will not have had time to build up any antibodies to fight it off, and it could be fatal for her. :(   If i am not contagious then there is a still a chance she could have it when she's born or develop it within the first week, but she may have built up antibodies by then. We just won't know. So i am so scared i will have her this week- I'm at 36 weeks now, almost 37.  I have worried about the diabetes affecting her, and now i have to worry about shingles. Poor child. I hope she is a fighter and will hang on. I already feel like a terrible mom, even though this is out of my control.

The house- oh the house. Basically we are very tired of the house. It has gotten more intense and more demanding. We have floors, tile shower, counterops, and a little trim left and then we are done. We are so close. We are thinking it can/will be done in 3 weeks, about the time i am due! i have this feeling i will either go into labor on move in day or the 1st day of school, either way, i'm sure it will be dramatic! my life is always drama!  Chris and i are arguing lots more, there is a lot more pressure and tension, b/c we are so close. i am at peace about having Claire here at this house, but the finishing the new house is within reach so we are going for it. he is out there every night till midnight working like crazy.

Old house- IT SOLD!!! we are so thankful, and to a cute couple, Alex and Jennifer Blankenship. They have a 2yr old and one due in October. She's in the same boat as me, she just wants in before the baby arrives. they are going to be very flexible about when we move out too, so thankful for that.

I'm just trying to hang on as best i can. I am being attacked left and right and so drained in every way. All i can do is pick myself up and keep going and know this will all be over with soon. This has been a hard pregnancy, but others' have had it worse, and i have to be thankful for that. I just want my little baby to be healthy without any complications when she's born- i just need a break from the bad stuff for a while.

Sorry it's been so long. Life is getting crazier!!

Diabetes- well, i still have it! it's not going away anytime soon. i'm adjusting to it better, but i still don't like it. for the most part i'm controlling my levels, but they hovering around the mark they are supposed to be, so i may have to get on meds to control it even better. i hate calculating everything i eat, logging it, testing my blood, and mainly trying to remember all of this! i miss milkshakes, fries, cereal whenever i wanted, oreos, and 2 buns on a burger. but i would feel terribly guilty if something were to be wrong with claire, and it was my doing. something still could be wrong i suppose, but at least i'm doing what the doctor says. i just pray and hope it goes away after i give birth.

Claire- i'm due in 7 weeks! she is still growing normally. I have lost 3 pds on this stupid diet. so now i've only gained 11 pds. everyone says i look really big and they think i'm carrying twins. it's all in my belly. i haven't expanded anywhere else really. i dont' think i look that big, but the world seems to think so!  lately, my legs have been hurting, so i have to rest them. i've been doing a water aerobics class twice a week. i'm terrible at it. i'm the worst in teh class. i have no balance. but it's keeping my sugars down. i'm supposed to be walking every day but there's not much time, and it's so hot.  i feel claire move a lot more. it feels like a big fish swimming in my stomach. at night i'm getting real hot and thirsty. i may be becoming dehydrated so i'm going to try and drink more water. chris and i are in a birthing class which is fun and interesting. the video's are gross. but i'm glad i get to share that with him. we don't get to talk too much about baby stuff or sit around and dream and rub the belly b/c of the house, so that is a great time for us to bond over it.

House- oh the house- will it ever be finished. it is in full force. we think it will be finished in 4-6 weeks. claire is due in 7. scary. i have this gut feeling i will go into labor on move in day! that will be fun!  we have floors left, rock work, countertops, bath fixtures installed, and that may be it. just not enough time in the day for it all. i've been heavily involved the past few weeks- working as much as i can, but mainly organizing, meeting people, shopping, and giving chris to-do lists (which hasn't gone over too well). we finally had our 1st major fight about the house the other day. it's been 6 months fight free, so it was bound to happen. but we got through. a lot of right now is that it's so intense, with trying to get it finished and my hormones are all over the place. great combination.

Old House-  old house has not sold yet. had one offer, but it was too low, with a lot of stipulations. we just didn't feel right about it. no lookers since. kind of worried, but trying to trust God on all of this. one good thing i suppose is that more than likely we will still be in this house when we move and  it will be easier to move then. i just worry that the new house wont' be done and baby will come- everything is packed up!

School- school starts back on aug 12. i will be 37 weeks then. i would like to get through my 1st week of prof dev to get those hours, but not my choice. i'm going to go back around the 1st to get my classroom set up and write 12 weeks worth of lesson plans.  i dread that. i always love going back to school- it's exciting, new pencils and crayons, everything is clean, the children are good, it's a fun and stressful time. this year will be much different.

that's all folks. if you think about me, lift up a prayer for a few things:

1) our old house to sell

2) my diabetes will go away after birth

3) whatever God's timing is on when she comes and the new house being done, that i can handle it

4) an easy delivery with no complications